I never expected that I’d have this feeling.

After having a very happy time, I don’t understand why my happiness is gone at the end…

After I have had a wonderful time together with my special person for 3 weeks, we have to stay far away again. When I’m alone, my brain starts to think about our good old days together again and again. 

I miss those moments. I don’t feel super and it gives me sadness. 

I think this sadness is a result of I’m cherished and valued those happiness moments.

My mind makes me recall old memories, especially when I’m alone. Maybe because I want to live at that moment as long as possible. Maybe because I don’t know when my next happy moment will be. 

Preventing myself from this sadness is very difficult. But I still believe this sadness will fade away with time. All I can do is control my mind and emotions. Keeping myself motivated and being grateful for many small things in the present ❤️🌸